Tuesday, October 04, 2005
i wont said that i have recovered...not at all...i still feel rather lousy over the whole situationstill having the heartaches...still thinking over what i saw...still asking why?still wondering when will all these come to an end...still feel lonely & all...but i do feel much better today...maybe afterall ...its not that major...but i know its God...last night when i was rather down but not wanting anyone to know...i still chat casually with this friends...talking bout life...she said this:"sometimes when we are too busy looking forward to what we want...what is next to come, we'll then feel that we are lacking of something...but if we can slow down or even stop for a moment...take a look at what we have, we'll then realise how blessed we are..."this actually strike me quite a bit...yes i long for a sweet relationship...a life of a couple...but besides that...what am i lacking in life? basically i would say nothing... i have all that i need... sometimes even more than what i asked for... so am i gonna complaintfor lacking of one but having abundance of others?i believe she's an angel from God...cuz i have not been talking to her almost this whole year...besides that...God has yet not forsaken me at all...he sent all kind of angels to me....my two very understanding cell leaders...they are not hurry in digging out what lies beneath...but all they are concern is whether this naughty little sister is alright...n that's all they asked for...i just love them even though they are slow... =ÞGod sent wonderful colleagues n managers...who keep me accompanied throughout the day (especially lunch time)...keep me distracted from all the blues...showing concern even though i'm slightly more quiet than usual (i'm quite surprise actually)... n lastly bringing me good food to cheer me up... lastly God sent me sister who assured me that...life can still be good without BGR... i'm still who i am eventhough not appreciated by some... i'm still loved by her eventhough they no longer do....i truely think that i'm surrounded by angels today....Dear Lord... thank you for all this blessings even though i've turn my back on u all the time...thank you for loving me as u always do even though i always wanna go my own way....thank you for showering me with your love eventhough i've been so stubborn all the time...Dear all...i just need a bit more time...abit more strength...a bit more courage...I"LL BE BACK
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