Thursday, September 15, 2005
**Distance**The distance is furtheringThe gap is enlarginghe's not bothered with my existence or notor in fact, he'd love to stay awayAnd Ii think i'm tired of being one-sidedApproaching one-sideddoing everything one-sidedthinking one-sidedcarrying hope one-sidedENOUGH!!! ITs REALLY ENOUGHthis is merely self-deceiving...cuz when love fades...everything becomes meaninglessso i stop...n guess what....once i stop, everything seems ended too...two who were so so close before...now treating each other like strangeror worse...as even stranger will attract our attention sometimes..but for us...we just dont want to know anything about each other..on the other hand...no one is trying to proceed or back-outwe try to maintain as we are/were...not sure to let go or not...but just so comfortable about each other's presencebut again...i'm scared...i'm scared its a one-sided thingy again...scared that its all my perceptions, n being played around by my emotions...after so so long...i'm still stagnant at where i was before...the preacher said...there's no such thing as stagnancy...if u dont move forward...u r then backsliding...so am i sliding back to where i was before?cuz i clearly know that i have not move on at all...*sigh*...*sigh*...*sigh*
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