Tuesday, November 28, 2006
^^^ Johnny^^^My first cell leader..The first and only person that i met and talked to when i went for Jack's baptism..My first step into the Zion community was attending his 21st B'day dinner...A man that played a very big part in my early christian walk...who told me a young christian can also be a strong christian...who told me i have the potential and made me a core member...who build my faith and my passion and inspire me to serve...A man that i was not very close with...in fact ... we hardly talk...hardly... hardly...but a man who sees with his heart...and easily sees my heart...and this totally caught me off surprise...Once Johnny dropped by my Walpole st residence...with a pack of dog treats... i know it was from jack... but johnny silently gave them to me..i teared when he left... not sure if its because i missed jack or what johnny did touches my heart...i desperately needed some love from friend then...and i thank God...johnny didnt leave me because of the wrong choice i made...Johnny told Joey...we are alike because we keep everything in our heart...when i heard that... i got a shock...like i said...we were never too close..we hang around because of jack... when that connection was broken... we were then far apart...but when i heard that... i felt the brotherly love..and i truely understand what it meant by love.. a pure love.. for people..for friend...26th Nov 2006Johnny left Perth...another zion's icon left... i feel so lost...he's one of the few that i'll search for whenever i walk into church...cuz he's simply significant.. now that he's gone...Again zion looks a bit different for me...my last chat with Johnny..i tried making it casual...i never expect tears cuz in my heart...i kept holding the thoughts that we were not close..i started the conversation with some jokes..then i prayed for him.. tears flow but wasnt bad..then Johnny told me:"stop hiding yourself from the crowd..dont always want to be alone..try to trust in love...there's really alot alot of people that love u deeply and care for u alot ..dont always try to bear all the burden by yourself..let people walk into your life and help you ...'dai goh lui la...guai la'..."and i started crying uncontrollably...i cant believe Johnny would tell me all these...my broken world.. my shattered heart.. my cheapest esteem... my lonely soul..my world seems to have a glimpse of light ..my dear brother then gave me a strong bear hug...and that hug tells me to persevere..that hug tells me bout love...that hug tells me to trust...that hug tells me to forgive..that hug tells me to soften my heart...that hug tells me to soften my ears..that hug tells me to be courages ...that hug tells me much much more than words can say...but i regret i never have a chance to tell him this..besides sobbing and nodding my head...i wanna tell you this:i will .. i will at least try and learn...i will give myself a chance to love n be loved...n..i really want to say ...THANK YOU..MY DEAR DEAR CELL LEADERYOU ARE STILL MY BEST CELL LEADER EVER
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