Saturday, October 28, 2006
我。。。好害怕
时间一点一滴地逼近。。
我开始犹豫。。
我。。 真的准备好要面对了吗？
我。。的意志真的够坚定了吗？
再次面对这些面孔。。
我。。真的能保持镇静吗？
谁来救救我？
可以来牵起我的手陪我走进去吗？
想到明天要回到那个即熟悉又陌生的地方
一个带给我无数快乐与无尽伤痛的地方
我觉得我都快要窒息了
怎么办？？
谁来救救我。。
Searching @ 6:38 PM*
Friday, October 27, 2006
""""" Tug-of War"""""i feel like i'm in the game of tug-of-warbut i'm not the player...i'm the rope...sometimes i'm in a sound mind and want to do the right thing...sometimes i got some emotional and just want to flip the table telling everyone the f%*# off...sometimes i want everyone to leave me alone and just mind their own business...sometimes i'm so lonely and wondering have i been forgotten by the world...sometimes i'm tough & independent wanting to handle everything by myself...sometimes i'm weak n timid and hoping for a helping hand or a shoulder to lean on...sometimes i want to go home and have a fresh new start...sometimes i dont wanna forgo all the ones that i love deeply here...sometimes i hope to walk up right and straight and just wanna fix my eyes and heart on God....sometimes i blame the Lord so much for putting me through all these...sometimes i beg the Lord to pull me up and hold me tight...sometimes i wish i can be evil enough to push myself straight down to hell...sometimes i hated zion so so much that i wish i had never put my foot in before...sometimes i missed zion so so much as that's a place i called home...sometimes i missed you so so much hoping i can turn back time and you are still mine...sometimes i hated my selfishness for holding you back where you should excel bright and far...sometimes i wish i can pull down my pride and just walk back in....sometimes i want to have the guts to walk out straight and not looking back...sometimes i missed my busy schedule where life is simply fulfilled and occupied...sometimes i enjoy my quiet moment thinking i can live life by myself...sometimes i appreciate and thankful for attention, care n concern...sometimes i'm annoyed when people tend to step too deep into my world trying to find out more about me...am i having split personality or what????so sick and tired of these kind of constant struggles...
Searching @ 12:27 PM*
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Never will this be again.....05 April 1998, Sunday 6.13Amhello....jui chan oi geh yau leng lui geh lopoh... hehehe....how r u?me really love u lar,..how ?but i wanna tell u something...u really make me feel good these few days...especially yesterday....u somehow like already change into another better girlfriend...always jao me so much recently.....i hope your change is not i force wan ...now i know that if a relationship gets longer and longer ...the more romantic it is.....but unfortunatly for kai tsiong and yihui ..things rather are bad for them...so i 'm really glad that we r still going steady and i hope u will always be mine....really wan ah!!!!now..i'm more feeling better than the last few days ....iahhhh...soli ah!! i treated u so badly ...hope u still love me the way u use to love me....i really love u onli....u must always believe this and always confidence in our future....we gonna be tien giong dei kau....u know or not...(unless u dun wan lar...but i know u wan wan...)..finally....hope that i never give pressure to u and always ...i won change the feeling and contents in my heart....which is ...I LOVE U TOO..!!!!! so..bye bye lar!!! jack....the new generation lou-gung of siew b!!!!bye i love u toolove u too.....
Searching @ 1:51 AM*
Thursday, October 05, 2006
我。。。好想你少了你我的世界变得好安静再也没有人隔着空气对我说：“我爱你”我，好像被这世界遗忘了
Searching @ 7:07 PM*
<><><> I mIsS U <><><>Heard about you last night...Learn about your dad's condition...Worried about how are you taking it....Feeling the amount of stress that you are facing and need to go through...Amazed by the inner strength you have in your tiny body...Weighing the loads that you are carrying on your shoulder...Thinking of ways to make you feel better...Hoping that i can do something for you...Praying that all these will come to past...Waiting for the day to see you again...All these can only be in my thoughts...So sorry that i'm incapable of doing anything for you...To lighten your loads or to ease your pain...But this i will not fail...continue to ...Love you deeply from my heart....
Searching @ 9:56 AM*
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
)()()( JoEy )()()(一个很贴心很贴心的朋友一个不断的鼓励我的朋友一个给我很多爱的朋友她终于离去了此别，也不知道再见何时？路，总是要走下去的吧。。。少了一个对你来说很重要的人你的世界犹如末日但对别人来说世界并没有任何改变生活依旧没有人会为你的伤痛而停下来就连你自己也不可能不跟着这世界继续运转这就是现实吧残酷而无情要赢它，就只有挺起胸膛，继续往前走。。。即使前路再不明。。。即使有可能会不断的受到伤害。。。也没有回头的余地只有继续往前走。。。为什么？因为我们不是蜂鸟。。。我们不会往后飞。。。我们也没有小叮当。。不能把时间停住或倒转。。所以就只好往前了光明或黑暗。。。就听天由命了。。。
Searching @ 7:33 PM*
