Thursday, September 28, 2006
~~~its been so long...so long~~~looking at the date of my last posting...its been more than 2 months...was i having a peaceful time for the past 2 months???not at all...in fact...my world was again tumbled upside down...and this time...the impact is so great that i dont see myself standing up from the big wave in short time...everything...everyone...seems to have chosen their own path...an me...who has been following the wave...floating along with it... now seems to be lost...when everything seems to have came to an end...or should i say... i'm now fault out of the game...i feel like i'm lost in the middle of the sea...everyone choose the direction they want and swim hard towards it...but me... have been depending on the strength of the wave for so long...now that it no longer pushing me around..then i realise that i've lost the ability to swim...i hate to be used as a float...but now i realise i'm just like a float...without someone riding over it..if there's no wind blowing...if the wave is not pushing...i'm then left stuck in the middle of the sea...heading nowhere...and i cant see the in-land...where's the end of the sea?i feel like i'm deflating...slowly... loosing my focus...cant find my direction...not knowing my purpose and what i really want...gonna drown one day when all the air in me is released....i missed my pillar...the one who gave me comforts n strength...i'm always safe to just following his footpath...he's too busy for me...he's too far n too good for me...he's swimming too fast...n he forgotten that...i actually dont know how to swim...leaving me in the middle of the sea...there'll be only one outcome...that you will see me no more...
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