Tuesday, February 21, 2006
*** 2 Months***havent really pen down my thoughts for the past 2 months...its kind of impossible to write everything down now...just too much has happened...or i should say..time just passes too quickly..while i was still looking forward to my holidays...its now over and i'm back to work at perth...to summarise my trip in msia..i would say it was good...this trip has lots of reflections...met up with my close friends... spending time with my families...getting to see my sis new house n knowing my future bro-in law better (he is a good man!!)this give me a good thought over my future...i made this decision n promise to my sis...the day she gets marry will be the day i leave perth...cant bear leaving my folks behind...i see their loneliness ... n i know what's their desires...since i can do it...i'll do it for them... emotionally...i was pretty shaken before i flew off...but this trip gave me a very very good break...not being influenced by anyone...without those familiar faces....i seems to have back to my life before i came to perth...but this time was my life with God...i ask n question HIM a lot.. reflecting my past one year...HE helps me to let go... instead of holding my past...He ask me to hold His hands...and since i came back...i feel enlighten...i feel ... mmm...ok...even when i see the one who brought me so much hurts...i dont dare to say I AM FINE...once a while it still tickles a bit here and there...but i think i'm seeing him in a different way now...no longer someone that i hold grudges or clinging to a slim hopes...but someone who leaves his footprint in my life...who forms part of my memories...i feel i'm moving on...maybe just 1 step..but at least my feet is no longer rooted ...emotional part 2there's some funny changes between me n him...he is doing so much...too much to make me think what's in his mind...i thought we made it clear that we'll remain friends...he calls me... doing so much behind my back...i know him too well... he is not expressive...never...but his love language is act of service... but i'm also thinking...by nature... he's simply kind n generous...so...he might be just showing gentleness n kindness towards a friend like me...mmmm...still under observation...emotional part 3some mild chemistry happens between me n him...but thank God it has now ended...cuz we are the mission impossible...he's leaving soon...so soon...and the moment we thought something might happen...he was told that he has to go...so we both step back... and he has now become one of my dear dear friend...giving me all kind of surprise all the time...thank God for knowing him.. short but sweet...but i pray that the Lord will remain in His heart...i pray that for Him to know the Lord is not just to find a mutual ground between both of us...but his heart will start to seek upon the Lord...and lots and lots and lots...but my lunch break is over...needa leave it this time...but i pray for peace upon my life...not sure if i'm ready for anything...therefore i need peace... let me do more for others before thinking of myself...so much to learn...so so much...
Searching @ 2:01 PM*
~~~A Relationship doesnt thrive because the guilty are punished but because the innocent are merciful~~~Read this when max was trying to describe Jesus, how true it this!!and i saw Christ' light shine through him..in my past, i did so much wrong against him, i literally push him to the very bottom of his life,but look at him now,he holds not a single bit of grudges against me,look at all that he is doing for me...i nearly couldnt contain it...i'll never dare to approach him if he didnt initiate the first move...i'll never dare to say a word if he didnt start the conversation...i'll not have the courage to stay if he didnt ask me to...and this.... is exactly what max was trying to illustrate...~~~A Relationship doesnt thrive because the guilty are punished but because the innocent are merciful~~~
Searching @ 1:40 PM*
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
~~~Happy Valentines' Day~~~~In God's way...For God so loVed the world, That He gAve His onLy BegottEn SoN That whosoever BelievethIn Him ShouldNot perish, But haveEverlasting life."John 3:16
Searching @ 1:23 PM*
