i feel like i'm in the game of tug-of-war but i'm not the player... i'm the rope...
sometimes i'm in a sound mind and want to do the right thing... sometimes i got some emotional and just want to flip the table telling everyone the f%*# off... sometimes i want everyone to leave me alone and just mind their own business... sometimes i'm so lonely and wondering have i been forgotten by the world... sometimes i'm tough & independent wanting to handle everything by myself... sometimes i'm weak n timid and hoping for a helping hand or a shoulder to lean on... sometimes i want to go home and have a fresh new start... sometimes i dont wanna forgo all the ones that i love deeply here... sometimes i hope to walk up right and straight and just wanna fix my eyes and heart on God.... sometimes i blame the Lord so much for putting me through all these... sometimes i beg the Lord to pull me up and hold me tight... sometimes i wish i can be evil enough to push myself straight down to hell... sometimes i hated zion so so much that i wish i had never put my foot in before... sometimes i missed zion so so much as that's a place i called home... sometimes i missed you so so much hoping i can turn back time and you are still mine... sometimes i hated my selfishness for holding you back where you should excel bright and far... sometimes i wish i can pull down my pride and just walk back in.... sometimes i want to have the guts to walk out straight and not looking back... sometimes i missed my busy schedule where life is simply fulfilled and occupied... sometimes i enjoy my quiet moment thinking i can live life by myself... sometimes i appreciate and thankful for attention, care n concern... sometimes i'm annoyed when people tend to step too deep into my world trying to find out more about me...
am i having split personality or what???? so sick and tired of these kind of constant struggles...
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