You said.. i'm very shakey now... because of all my intentions to leave.. ie..i'm on the run..
it might not sound convincing ... but i really dont think i shakey... rather i'm simply a coward that lack of courages... because of this whole incident...i see 2 outcomes:
1) the whole thing continue as it is... eventually the worst happens... many hurts...many tears...many broken hearted... and you'll most probably leave ....
2)the whole thing ends before anything happened... most likely u'll leave as well...with a scattered heart and soul...
i cant bear to see either outcome... i'm so scared of either outcome... i only know one thing... is that..at the end of the day... u'll be hurt the most... i cant bear to see u being hurt again... i cant bear to see u lost everything u treasured in ur life... i cant bear to see u live in pain again... i know that no matter how i'll still lose u at the end... but at least i want to see u go with a bright smile and no regrets.. bringing all the treasured memories along...
i guess...being such a selfish coward...that's y i want to run... but again... as a coward...its takes a lot a lot a lot of courages to go... so i'm still saving it up...
and this time... i'm not deciding in a rush... not purely emotional... i just pray for the best for u...
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