i...errrmmm...exploded after all the repeating false accusations plus the fluctuations of my hormones... i finally exploded.... nearly declare war with her.... was actually abit regreted after that... i dont mean to stir things up... i thought i can swallow it all... n i hate to get people to worried or wonder what had happened... but i also hate to be misunderstood.. i hate to be questioned over n over again for the false statements... but i thank God for all the understanding hearts n ears... i guess...its good enough... at least, i had a chance to speak for myself... they might not believe it all... but at least... this time i speak for myself.... i read s friends' blog today... she was talking about lying... she was wondering why people lie so much just to protect themselves... she knows truth hurts...but she also realise that lies hurt more when its being revealed... i had a grin on my face when i was reading it... feel like giving her a BIG HIGH 5... because...i wonder WHY as well?? i always got nervous if i have to lie... n i get worried over it... n after the SUPER BIG lesson that ive learnt last year... i tolf myself i can lie no more... if its hard to talk or tell.. i'll rather choose to be silent then... i think that's why i'm being named the moody, scary, fierce n unapproachable housemate... but how... i really have got nothing to talk to her... n really dont want to tell her anything!!! ...i guess...to choose between lying n being accused... i keep my stand.... her cell leader told me... ultimately....i'm here to please God n NOT Men... muahahha....too bad...even your cell leader reminds me not to please u... =Þ if ivy is reading now...i think she'll vormit blood... cuz that's not what she meant ..kekekekkek but honestly... i really cant force myself to talk much to her... its very tiring...especially i need to use my brain 3 times harder when i talk to her... has o differentiate whether she's lying or not...mmmm... i think...i prefer to be scary then... sometimes i dont understand...we were once so close... if she really treat me as her close friend...then why keep lying to me? besides not talking to her much...what are the things that i have not treat her well enough... that she need to continuously talk bad about me.... i really wonder... is me or her?? ivy said there's lotsa misunderstanding... but all that happened... is not from my assumptions or imagination.... is all that she told people n people pass back to me... so is it still misunderstanding? to me....the only misunderstanding here would be... she thought that i'm simply weird... but not knowing that i know all that she's doing.... how to sort this out then? i wonder~~~~~
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